mistakes
take my deal.
we’ll go out with whoever we want, hookup/fuck/do shit with whoever we want, and meet each other back in the future.. and decide if we still want a future together.
win-win for both of us.
would it be a mistake getting back with me because we might not work out?
or would it be a mistake not getting back with me because you’ll lose me?
i don’t have forever to wait,
i used to be able to say i would wait however long for you. but i can’t anymore.
i’m going to do my own thing, move on, live my life. with or without you.
Baby, I’m selfish. I want you all to myself. But if I can’t have that, then I don’t want us to be part of each other’s lives at all - I’d want to move on.
un-fucking-believable
so after last night/ this morning’s phone call you decide to change your facebook password and unblock and add L back. just wow. pretty funnny.
i told you you’d never change. you wanna fuck her? go ahead. just fucking go out with her. i dont fucking care anymore. i never did. you talk bullshit. saying shit like you’d never give up, you’d try to get me back. you’re pushing me further away by doing shit like this that makes me fucking angry.
go fuck her. fuck whoever you want. all i fucking asked was for you to fuckign stop contact with her. you couldnt do that. is she that important to you that you’d choose her? you had two options. fucking that slut, or be someone that you loved’s option 1. i guess you were too fucking dumb and infatuated by the slut to choose the latter.
youre not trying to get me back anymore, you’re just helping me get over you and want to cut you completely out of my life even more.
you’re a ffffff
you. will. never. change.
not for me at least. change for E. change for L. change for ABCEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ. but it’s impossible for you to change for me.
it sounded like something small, whether or not you still tumblred on your other tumblr about me, but it was something quite important to me. it told me how much you still cared about me; but you didnt post. not at all. nothing. zilch. the fact that you dont give two fucks to write anything makes it so much easier for me to move on.
enough with being sad, time to get angry:
lol i fucking cant believe you talk to E (and probably allll your other girls) the way we used to talk to each other. making pretend msn convos and pasting it onto fb comments, “spring roll”, “vagtable”, it makes me want to rip up that stupid brthday card you supposedly spent a week on.
i dont want anything to do with you. just like i see youre showing me you dont need me, by talking to E so much, and by posting shit on your first tumblr.
you know what, everytime i see you post on that tumblr and not your other one, i get bothered. i know part of the reason you post is because it’s something you have in common with E and you guys follow each other. it makes me angry. have your little ‘spark’ with her. i dont give a shit about you and what goes on in your life anymore.
why the fuck would you look at old chatlogs and comments between you and tammie about me. dont fuckign act like you still care.
im done with you. have a nice life, prashant. i dont have a want or see us needing to go any further from where we are now.
more than twice
fuck up.
you continue to make me angry and then pester me about what’s wrong.
wtf.
and stop making everything look like it’s my fucking fault when we both know i’ve done absolutely nothing for you and i to come to where we are right now. you’re the one that fucked up (or should i say ‘fucked’), so you make the fucking moves to fix things otherwise i’m moving on and all i’m leaving behind is a “have a nice life”.
this is what you want
Fuck this lol. I’m not going to bother trying to tell you the truth - that I haven’t done anything with another boy. You can believe what you want to believe. I know the truth, I’m fairly sure I know what I’ve been doign afterall. It IS me lol?
Tell your “reliable source” to get their facts straight before blabbing out bullshit. I wouldn’t want them ruining more people’s lives.
If you want me out of your life, just say it. Say it to my face. That’s the way I want to hear it. Don’t fucking just start ignoring me, start talking to people you know I really despise and make up shit. Your excuse was stupid. No, I’m stupid. Stupid enough to go back to you the second time. Stupid enough to still talk to you, still love you after you fucked another girl. Stupid enough to always come back after you hurt me and know you’ll only hurt me again.
I’m so fed up. I know I can be happy with someone else. I know there is a boy out there that can make me so much more happier than you ever did. But why do I choose the path where I know I’ll just hurt?
I don’t know what you’re thinking. I don’t even know what I’m thinking myself.
No, actually I kinda do. Just that I’m so stupid for being involved with you for more than a year now. And just .. I don’t know. I’m done. I know I’ve said it multiple times, that I was done. So many tumblr entries. But I’m really trying now. I’ve come to realisation that there are so many good things in my life - you not being one of them. There’s a part of me that wants you to be that big part of my future, but I know it’s not good for me.
I can’t cry for you anymore. I try, but I just can’t. I cry because I feel so pathetic and stupid. For that small part of my heart that still wants to be with you.
That small part of my heart, it’ll always love you no matter what, it’ll always welcome you back with open arms, but I don’t know. It’s only a small part .. And I don’t know if it’s a good thing, but I think I’m becoming immune to the shit that happens between us when you fuck me over. I guess that’s why I always come back, because I’m so used to you hurting me. It’s sick but it’s true.
Don’t be angry, don’t be upset or show any emotion if you see me with some other guy. It’s what you want, you’ve showed me it’s what you want through your actions. Or should I be saying ‘lack of action’? I wouldn’t be surprised if you get with LVDW or one of those young girls soon anyway.
I’m done. Believe what you want. I know it isn’t true. I don’t enjoy fucking you over like you enjoy doing it to me. I don’t know why I still talk to you. You said it was because of “love”. But you stopped talking to me after hearing a rumour. Does that mean you never even loved me? Look like it. You can have your heart back, take back all the memories of “us”, clear what you see as a future with me, I’m taking back my love and I’m moving on without you. For me.
Quote reblogged from More than just a pretty face; with 1,688 notes
You don’t let people in. It’s hard for you and once you do you don’t want to let them go and when they fuck up you’re like “Why did you do that to me? I gave you my feelings. I did everything for you, and you screwed me over.
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